Thursday, July 31, 2014

Blister in the Sun.

Band camp was all last week. It went extremely well! We were lucky to have super overcast ominous days for the first part of the week! We got our first three charts learned and we have the first and second tune already put to music and marching! 

The saxophone and clarinets already have four out of five songs memorized for this year! Wahoo! Everyone came ready to get some serious work done and that's what we did! 
For theme day on Friday, saxy's dressed as tacky tourists (see picture of me above) and the trumpets dressed as frats. Hysterical.  

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Clara Goes to Athens.

 I drove up to Dahlonega Saturday to see Clara a last time before she goes back to Virginia! We had lunch then went to a cool hippie store where she bought her rad shirt from the pictures. 
 It was Clara's last weekend in Georgia and she had never made it Athens, so we figured today was the day. We went to the giant Goodwill to look for treasures then by the house to get my camera and downtown to wander!

We made a quick stop in Half Moon Outfitters to see if Will was working (he wasn't) then went to Cillie's consignment store where I got adorable shoes and Wuxtry Records, Jackson Street books, and Pitaya. We soon found ourselves at Insomnia Cookies where we both got custom ice cream sandwiches which were impeccable. We ate them on North Campus while doing a little people watching and a lot of talking.

 There was a wedding going on at the UGA chapel which was neat and we saw the bride and groom ringing the bell together. Awww
We washed our sticky ice cream hands off in the fountain, found tall grass to adventure in, met a nice statue, and climbed trees. 
  We ate Mellow Mushroom in Gainesville (Clara's first Mellow Mushroom EVER) on the way back up to Dahlonega. I actually got in a bit of trouble for not watching the time. I was supposed to be back in Athens, having returned Clara to Dahlonega, by 7 but we were still in Athens together around 6...
I ended up spending the night with her up at camp which ended up being a blessing for us to have a little more time together. I uploaded a lot of music on her computer for her to remember me (ha). Of course, it was stupid that I didn't pay attention to the rules and got myself in that messy situation. It worked out this time, but I know it may not always. 
All in all. A fantastic day. We kept re-freaking out about how excited we were to be spending time with each other! She's the coolest and I look forward to getting creative about how to stay in touch. :)

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Being Here But Ready For There But Not Knowing If You're Actually Ready Until It'll Be Too Late.

It often occurs to me that I spend a lot of my time in preparation. But that's not really true. I actually spend most of my time worrying about how I could prepare and being discouraged by how unprepared I actually am. 

I have quite lofty aspirations for myself. 

I want to achieve things. I want to achieve things now. I want to see how it turns out now. I don't want to waste time waiting. Even though I know timing is everything. I want to do what I can to prepare myself and make myself qualified. I'm constantly anticipating what I might be doing in the future. 

But I always end up in a disappointing rut. 

It seems so obvious that everyone in the world is more ready. It feels like everyone else is able to prepare themselves for what they want and I'm stuck. But once again, none of this is actually true. I have it in my head that yes, everyone is getting ready to be able to win if ever in competition with me while the other part of me believes that of course, we're all in the same boat. 

Everyone else is nervous and anxious like me. They may not be nervous now, but that will come later for them.
 "We all go through it together, but we all go at it alone" -She and Him. 

It only recently occurred to be that I may fail in life. I may not be prepared. I have a feeling deep inside me that I won't have an easy transition into the world. I'm acutely aware that I'm currently living in a uniquely safe and stable environment that I'll not have again for a long while or maybe ever. I should be enjoying my last two years of absolute comfort living in my parents house. I should live fully in the moments I'm presented because I may never be able to approach life like I could right now. I don't have to worry about making dinner. I don't have to be concerned for other people. I hardly even have to be concerned for myself because I'm not under my own care. This is frustrating but also beautiful. 

Monday, July 21, 2014

Would You Rather...

Would you rather learn to play every instrument on the planet (and outside if Neptune is really a rare music shop) or listen to every song created so that you know, you really really know what you like. 
I've thought both of these things before; however, I always come to the crushing conclusion that of course, neither can be done. I'm defeated once again. But if it was possible, which would you choose? 

Imagine how much you could impress people with either of those skills! Did I just totally blow your mind? 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Laughing Lately.

What's made you laugh lately? Actually. I don't care. Don't answer that. Just kidding. Do what you do. 

Here's what I've gotten a kick out of as of late. 
Go laugh. 

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Mad Respect to Mr. Green.

Warning: This is a post with many words and no pictures. I hope you take the time to read it though because, yes I took a while to say my thoughts, but these thoughts are like an epiphany to me at this moment. Enjoy. 

I didn't buy much into "The Fault in Our Stars" and I was driven crazy by his AP World review videos all last year. I wrestled with my feelings about John Green for a while, but I've finally come to a conclusion.

I'll start again. 

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Stop. Stop. What's the Hurrry? Come on Baby Don't You Worry Worry!

Happy 20th birthday dear dear sister. I cannot believe you left me to rot in stupid teenage wasteland; even so, I love you and am so glad you've been blessed with years passed your teens. 
Happy start to your twenties! From what I can tell, it's best to enter this decade of your life without many exploitation-oriented goals (ie 'I better be married by 23 or I'm a doomed spinster' or 'I can't believe I'm not making more then [small salary] and I've been at this for [minimal starting years]). From the outside, it seems like people in their twenties frustrate themselves with fruitless worries about the future, and the present, and the suddenly accelerated way that the future is becoming the present. Don't. 

Don't worry about petty things if you can help it and enjoy where you are in life. 
As a wise Regina Spektor sings, "Today we're younger then we're ever gonna be."
 Think about that. Have fun and good luck navigating the ages everyone weirdly raves about. Take it in so that when it comes time for me to enter this time, you have words for me too.

I love my 20-year-old seester! (yeah this was's cool)

Friday, July 11, 2014

Brooklyn Based,

The only thing we had scheduled today was to go to the 9/11 memorial museum. It started to lightly drizzle so there was an option to go home on the subway and chill a little (aka Gossip Girl, duh) or walk home in the light rain across the Brooklyn Bridge. I opted to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge, obviously. 

We took a little lunch break where we ate leftovers from the week. Once we felt rejuvenated and the rain had stopped, we went over to Williamsburg to check out Bedford Avenue and "the hip Brooklyn scene". It was outstanding. I so love it. Everytime I looked around I was like "I belong here!"  
We went boutique shopping and I found a whole wall of Happy Socks! Eek! Heaven!
Fourth of July spirit. 
We wandered on down to DUMBO to eat at Shake Shack, because what's more American? We found an adorable little picnic area near live music with strung lights and it was just beautiful. The weather was perfect and the world seemed so uncomplicated at that moment. 

After we finished and had had enough of dancing in the streets, we walked down to the East River to find a place for watching fireworks. 

This little girl had beautiful hair, so I took a creeper picture. 
When we got back to the house, our leaders were so tired, so most of us girls just went out to our back patio and listened to music and then...we climbed up the fire escape....past our levels....and up the ladder to the roof! It was such a special moment! We got to see extra fireworks too! 
This was such a laid back day. I loved it! We were able to explore and be more free! Wheeee!